I was always obsessed with girls and sexually active, but it took me a while to put those things together. I remember causing a scandal at my eighth birthday party because when I invited people, I invited not only the whole class, but all the boys in the class as well. I picked three girls: Samantha, Jessica and Jed. My family still makes fun of me Samantha, Jessica, and Jed. I must have been attracted to them to some degree, but I was still eight years old.

When I was about 12, I started looking at pornography. I think it was a Yahoo search engine, and it was just searching for "naked girls". I knew what I was looking for, it wasn't like someone had to introduce me to pornography. I was still obsessed with girls, but the idea of having sex with them didn't exist, like I didn't exactly make that connection until I found my first girlfriend at 18. I went to a very academic school school, which was an all boys school, and I don't think most of the other students were having sex. But then I started dating this girl and we would get these sex calls and I started connecting with this girl that I was really into sex with. We never actually had any physical sex because of exams, but we did get these calls. I didn't lose my virginity until I was 19 years old and going to college.

I'm a child of immigrants; I come from a very traditional and very academic background. I have Indian heritage, and I grew up thinking that sex or relationships were just something we didn't do. They were for other people. Public expressions of love, like couples holding hands - whether it was my parents or other married people - that kind of thing didn't happen; I didn't see it. I struggled with that. I've only had one girlfriend who was Indian - my first girlfriend. I wouldn't say I have a hard time finding Indian women attractive or anything else, I just think I find it almost difficult to have a possible sexual or romantic relationship with them. I've never found myself attractive, to be honest. I think growing up there was a real feeling that this sexual or romantic desire was not for people like us.

In college, I was in a relationship about once a year-everything was brief, about two to four months. The first year was with the girl I lost my virginity to. The second year was with a friend of mine. We got into a horrible relationship. It was so bad because she was really strong, powerful, confident, confident in her opinions, very, very smart, and used to very aggressive men around her. The idea of her flirting was a bit of a dick to me, and I didn't find it attractive. What she wanted - and I know this, it wasn't me at all - was for me to hold her back and do what I wanted to do to her. We never talked about it. We had a one-time relationship, which was uncomfortable and weird. That was the last stage of our relationship. Two days later we really broke up. But a few months later, we became friends again and we are still friends to this day.

I had a relationship with a woman who identified as a lesbian in my last year of college. She was very open and very into casual sexuality and experimentation. Her parents were polyamorous and they actually divorced because her father decided that one of his new partners was someone he wanted to settle down with. But she was raised in a very sexually free, easy and relaxed environment. Very, very different from me. We had a very messy relationship. We had sex because she was just willing to open up and experiment and try and be willing to do absolutely anything; that was great. She would give me rimjobs, and I would love those. They were so incredible. I've never had a partner willing to do that to me since then. I'd really like to do it again.

But emotionally it was a total disaster. She couldn't stay in a monogamous relationship, and I tried to stay in a monogamous relationship. She would say yes to me, and then she would go out and sleep with other girls. I got it; I was like, "I know you're not sure about your sexuality, and I don't want to put a label on this or anything, but I think if you're in a relationship with me, you're in a relationship with me."

A few years later, I was the best man at a friend's wedding and met the maid of honor. We got together that night and the relationship lasted four and a half years and defined a large part of my current world. We traveled long distances for a few years, then I moved to the town I'm in now to be closer to her, then we eventually moved in together, and once we did, it became clear that she had little to no sexual desire. I put a lot of effort into it, she put a lot of effort into it, but I could tell she didn't want to have sex. Sometimes she was very dry. Sometimes she kind of forced the action, which was scary. I would try to stop things or slow down or say, "Hey, should we try to do something else?" But she'll do it because she thinks it's important. I'm talking to her about marriage and she's very anti-marriage. While we were talking about marriage, I was also looking for escorts. I searched on Google and found people and just looked at the pages and did nothing, nothing, never called anyone. I realized, hang on, that sex was a very important part of my life and I was missing out. I was daydreaming about escorting and daydreaming about a horrible old college relationship. She was a bit abusive to me after the relationship ended and it took me a long time to regain my confidence and learn how to date again. I was daydreaming about escorting and daydreaming about the horrible old college relationship. After the relationship ended and she became a bit abusive to me, it took me a long time to regain my confidence and relearn how to date. I was daydreaming about escorting and daydreaming about the horrible old college relationship. After the relationship ended, she was a bit verbally abusive to me and it took me a long time to regain my confidence and relearn how to date.

The latter as I felt too tired to engage with them, so I decided to buy a young sex doll, after the doll arrived I found her very realistic, at the same time they will also be very obedient and will not go to blame us where we did not do well, will not talk about us, we can choose what we want according to our preferences, they can be mature sex dolls or big ass sex dolls, that will be very nice.